Blame it on the world

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 4:32 pm

 "I am two women: one wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me. The other wants to be a slave to routine, to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved. I'm a housewife and a prostitute, both of us living in the same body and doing battle with each other."


"The meeting of these two women is a game with serious risks. A divine dance. When we meet, we are two divine energies, two universes colliding. If the meeting is not carried out with due reverence, one universe destroys the other."
- From "Eleven Minutes" by Paul Coehlo
 
This explains why we are the way we are, sister! Blame it on Mama who was anything but a simple schoolteacher and housewife. Blame it on our St. Jo education which taught us right and wrong but also brought out the Artist in us. Blame it on our liberal UP education which opened our eyes to the countless possibilities the world can offer. Blame it on the men in our lives who have been nothing like the stereotypical male.
We are destined to struggle but eventually thrive in these two worlds. No choices need to be made. It just is!

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