Jandrea...so far

If this be true, then the moon has seen me naked so many more times than the sun!  Is it a thought that bothers me?  That the Moon has looked inside  of me, gazed at parts  That even the Sun has not been privileged to see?   The Moon has been allowed to examine my flaws and imperfections.  It has kept me company during the darkest and ugliest moments of my life.  It has celebrated with me when I choose to reveal my own light!  And cloaked me when the Sun’s heat melted my heart!  And yet has the Moon ever understood me?  Has it ever undressed my excesses?  Has it ever looked at why my light falters and dims?  Has it ever wondered why the Sun couldn’t be enough  And why this nakedness is now bruised and will never heal ? 

                       Isang tanong na marahil ay hindi magkakaroon ng kasagutan kailan man... Mula sa dalampasigang Binabagabag ng mga alon Tinalikuran kita  Hindi tinangkang tanawin ni minsan Ang bulubunduking  Na sa iyo’y kumubli.  Pinili nating paghiwalayin tayo Ng malawak na karagatan,  Ng makapal na ulap Ng mga matatalas na tunog ng kalikasan At nagtagumpay ang katanimikan  Sa di masukat na panahon. Ngunit sa hindi inaasahang araw Napawi ang makapal na ulap  Dumungaw ang araw sa aking ulirat At narinig ko ang pagbulong mo Ng aking pangalan. Sana’y di ko hinayaang tumungo  Ang pang-uusisa sa pagkabalisa Hindi ko sana tinugunan Ang mga pakiusap mong alalahanin ang kahapon Hindi ko sana tinangkang angkinin Mga kasagutang matagal mong ipinagkait. Dahil di nagtagal, ika’y naglaho Nang walang paliwanag at Lumayo nang walang paalam Muli, tumungo ka nanaman sa di matanaw Sa dahilang di ko maunawaan at  Katotohanang di ko na tatangkaing abutin.  Gusto ko sanang sabihin na Sana’y maging ma

Oh wow! I wish I had met that archeologist when I was much younger because that was what I had been led to believe all these years - that it’s only worth doing something if you excel in it! I guess the pandemic taught me another lesson, anyway - that being good at things is not the point of doing them! I realize know that learning all these artistic skills have allowed me to have all these wonderful experience and have taught me how to navigate my inner world, no matter how well I did them!

Have that luscious, sparkling drink All that you can get your hands on To intoxicate you, to take you to dizzying heights To make you laugh boisteriously To make you loud and proud To make you unafraid to love without measure Because... “No one ever knows  when it’s time to go!” *  Inspired by “Sip your tea, nice and slow” by Anne Lee Tzu Peng