Jandrea...so far

It’s funny but more sad that I spent most of yesterday crying over someone that I really liked back in college. It wasn’t one of those unrequited loves where the person knew about my feelings but couldn’t reciprocate them. It was more of a restless feeling that befuddled my brain and created stirrings in my heart for while. It was a you’re-always-in-my thoughts and can’t-wait-to-see-and-talk-to-you state of mind. It was what a 19-year-old would label as a serious crush that could have future possibilities!  It was a quiet secret, not to be shared with anyone. It was just being happily content in his company and reveling in the care and thoughtfulness that he showed to everyone (not just me!). It was a I-think-he-likes-me-too-but-maybe-he’s-with-someone-else hopelessness! That scenario would define the last of my college and teen years.  So when I had to leave for reasons beyond my control, I chose to just keep that feeling inside of me. I believed that there was a chance to see him aga

   Lately, I have been doing art using my chalk and soft pastel! It was not the first time I tried this as seen in the sketchbooks I unearthed from a box containing my art supplies and previous works. But since the pandemic has kept us in quarantine 24/7, I have discovered this passion once again. Inspired with photos I took in the past and those that catch my eye from many sources, I have managed to produce at least one piece every other week during the period that we have been confined inside our home!  At the very least, it has kept me both busy and entertained during moments that I find my daily routine intolerable! Every finished work is a testament to my small steps to think out of the box and to be no longer afraid of possible criticisms from others. When I share pictures on social media, the positive remarks I receive from friends boost my morale and fuels my confidence! But more than these, I am glad that I have been pointed towards this direction because my art work has treme