All Wrong

 It was all wrong

Even from the start

You were so different

From my dream of who 

Would steal my heart


A strong, deep voice

Who would sing for me

Reassuring arms that would

Ward off threats to my fragility 


A quiet, comforting presence

Constantly by my side

Yet smart-ass, wise-cracking, 

Crazy sexy, at my secret bidding


But I got it all wrong, all these you were not!


I misread your aura, I misheard your songs

Maybe because you came into my life

When tears were blurring my vision 

And my ears could not catch the decibels of lies


I was never right for you as well

With someone else’s knots I could not untangle

During your sparse hours of need, I could only linger

Struggling to bear the weight of our vowed forevers


Digging deep into the fading years 

Uncovering wounds that refuse healing

Tightly-wound memories unravel

Questions haunt me yet again


How could truly loving each other then

Ever be judged by the world as wrong? 



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